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[Apr. 26th, 2010|12:06 am] |
its been so long since i last posted something here. so neglected.
its been a year since ive been officially working. and yet im dreading working so much that ive been complaining and complaining and complaining and yet i dont know what to do. ive told the boy some time back, i have a love/hate relationship with my job. not going to elaborate much, but very soon that hate would overcome the love so much more.
schooling days are really so damn much better. or maybe if i had the chance or luxury of doing what i really liked, i may not complain this much, or maybe i would. but at least i might not have felt this lousy. this may had paid me well. but it isnt really that well either. i dont like how rigid the system is. how ridiculous this whole thing actually looks. but its been pathetic seriously.
i want to go back to studying. and yet i fear how hard it may get. and at the end of the day, how ridiculous it would look again. boyfriend told me, its not only about the pay. its about the job security. even if you manage to get a job that pays you damn fucking well but with no job security, how long could it last you? which is something that i can never deny about. but this really tires me out so much that what makes all my judgements so passive and maybe even going the wrong direction. really dont know what to do sometimes. sighhh. annoying feeling. ): |
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| Untouched |
[Nov. 30th, 2009|06:14 pm] |
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I go ooh ooh, you go ah ah
lalalalalalalala
I can't lie lie lie lie lie lie
I wanna wanna wanna get get get what I want
Don't stop
Give me give me give me what you got got
Cause I can't wait wait wait any more more more more
Don't even talk about the consequence
Cause right now you're the only thing that's making any sense to me
And I don't give a damn to what they say, what they think think
Cause you're the only one who's on my mind
I'll never ever let you leave me
I'll try to stop time forever, never wanna hear you say goodbye (bye bye bye)
I feel so untouched
And I want you so much
That I just can't resist you
It's not enough to say that I miss you
I feel so untouched right now
Need you so much somehow
I can't forget you
Been going crazy from the moment I met you
Untouched
And I need you so much
See you, breathe you, I want to be you
Alalalala alalalala
You can take take take take take time time
To live live the way you gotta gotta live your life
Give me give me give me all of you you
Don't be scared
I'll see you through the loneliness of one more more more
Don't even think about what's right or wrong, wrong or right
'Cause in the end it's only you and me and no one else is gonna be around
To answer all the questions left behind
And you and I are meant to be so even if the world falls down today
You've still got me to hold you up up
And I will never let you down (down)
I feel so untouched
And I want you so much
That I just can't resist you
It's not enough to say that I miss you
I feel so untouched right now
Need you so much somehow
I can't forget you
Been going crazy from the moment I met you
Untouched, untouched, untouched, untouched, untouched
Alalalala alalalala
Untouched
Alalalala alalalala
I feel so untouched
And I want you so much
That I just can't resist you
It's not enough to say that I miss you
I feel so untouched right now
Need you so much somehow
I can't forget you
Been going crazy from the moment I met you
I feel so untouched
And I want you so much
That I just can't resist you
It's not enough to say that I miss you
I feel so untouched right now
Need you so much somehow
I can't forget you
Been going crazy from the moment I met you
Untouched, untouched, untouched
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[Nov. 2nd, 2009|11:41 pm] |
you never fail to make me go all the way up so high and send me crashing down the next second. just like a roller coaster ride.
but trust me, i dont enjoy it. not a single bit. |
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| he said, |
[Nov. 1st, 2009|11:03 pm] |
"for so long, ive never seen you in a skirt or a dress. im sure ive gotten myself a girlfriend and not a boyfriend right?"
): where am i going to find skirts or dresses, and worse, wear them.
girls, throw me some links or let me know where i should start searching from. i suck at this and yes i know. ):
had been looking around at blogshops that i frequently go to and i dont see anything that i like or something that i think id look nice when i fit into it. zzzzzzzzzzzz. dont know how this is going to work. /: |
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| waiting for my hair to grow longer. |
[Oct. 8th, 2009|09:23 pm] |
alright, ignore my previous post my dear friends as ive been better since that time. things happened and i think it'd be better for us if i put it past and move on. he'd never read this anyway.
waiting for my fringe to grow back longer to a satisfactory length where i can go for a trim on the rest of my hair and not let the hairstylist cut it too short. work had been just fine i guess. neither good nor bad. which is a pretty good thing i supposed.
mini assessment coming up. which is pretty pain in the ass and i hate having to study the new methods. too much things and too little time. and im supposed to know if im confirmed staff like in 10 more days. hopefully its pretty good news. :/ keep fingers crossed.
alright, back to studyinggggggg. ugh. work tmr. bye everyone. |
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| Can I still trust you? |
[Sep. 30th, 2009|08:36 pm] |
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Im losing myself. Slowly. Id slowly be killing myself. Bit by bit. I can feel it. |
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[Jun. 29th, 2009|08:30 pm] |
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old pain doesnt completely die. time may sooth it, stroke over it until it looks like it has healed, but it never dies properly. it stays with you, it lives in the cracks of your soul, waiting for moments when you feel true pain. |
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[Jun. 21st, 2009|06:45 pm] |
ah, im damn damn lazy to retype everything and i am pretty much lazy to type properly as well since the stupid "shift" button dropped off. and my laptop looks pathetic right now.
for the good news, i finally passed my driving test and am waiting for my licence to be delivered to me.
and i cant wait to kill the opticians, why are they taking so damn long to get my safety specs ready. growls.
short update. bye folks. |
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| R.I.P |
[May. 21st, 2009|05:01 am] |
another thing to deal with, my grandmother just passed away.
just received the call from my mom.
i'm not feeling anything yet, it sounds inhumane, but i'm just not close to her.
since young, i was never close with my grandparents. unlike most of my other cousins who grew up at my grandparents home, i only returned when i was about primary 5? i never felt anything strong with them. maybe just that i liked my grandfather who passed away 3 years back and my grandmother had made me lost all my respect for her over several incidents.
but well, she's still my grandmother afterall, so i hope she'd rest in peace. bye, got to do all the preparations for the wake. |
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